h o w s u n ((:

DAY & DATE : Monday, November 07, 2005

i don't know how to type the feeling out
how i wish i have someone to talk to .
well , i got my blog .
there are some f--ker just dun wanna quit
he is like so weird nowadays
and i find him changed alot
ALOT ALOT ALOT
and he is getting further and further from me
he is not like the he that he used to be
well , he is he . i dun give a f--king care .
now . another he .
he is getting nearer to me . his soul
but then , i think he is so eek !
things that past , will never be the same now .
he is somebody i respect last time alot
ALOT ALOT ALOT
and he hack cared me . oh well . so
shall wait . till the day you will
REALLY APPRECIATE me
now is the she .
can i say she is thinking too much ?
yes she is ! oh well .
she does what she doesN'T suppose to do
she is not suppose to anyhow touch ! but she does ! lets just say
she over-think
the third he .
he is one little selfish guy
that's all
dun ask me who are they !
responsibility is what that pulls me down
i'm so freaking tired of being responsible
but that's what push me higher in social life
seh . act chim nia
now me !
what i feel i am these few days
- a toy that people use to talk/play with when they are BORED
-an extraoutstanding person !
-left on the dark side of world
-slave / male maid
-someone that you can be rude to
-act clever
-act as if i know everything
-someone that everybody don't respect
-someone who gives people to vent their anger on
-someone who got scold for no reason
-" spare tyre "
still got more . just very hard to type out only .
i think we had became further from each other
today so what lah . felt so thrashed
so suay . kena defamed 6 times and my items were gone .
secretly . hide everything from me !! i dun wanna know .
argh . damn !
i find myself a failure and useless
people look for me just to ask me ,
when is a maths ?
or other study stuff and treat me as if i know everything
what the h*ll .
treat me as if i'm a walking notepad or something like that
i'm not treasured / appreciated .
you will say : hey . dun think so much . i treasured you
i will take it as a comfort or whatever you spell it .
and also a lie for me . just to make me happy .
oh . you might not even said that
well , okay .
i'm a person who ACTS INNOCENT
stupid . f--ker .
"throw away la, ur com can become antique alrdy"

"i know. but i thought antique is supposed to be valuable?"

"...."

howsun . the sucker.

how about this ?!
HOWSUN ROCK!
DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA !
howsun finish jotting down his notes at 8:40 PM