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CHAPTER 15 : HOWSUN'S LIFE NOTES : maystar designs
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DAY & DATE : Friday, July 07, 2006 with some colours only okay this week is a very tiring week and therefore i lack of sleep hmm .. sometimes , i think that life is full of dissapointments , and happy moments , which also includes times where you're not happy life is so interesting 'it just go against you sometimes that's life however , suicidal thoughts should not come in mind but it did , just a few hours ago , thinking about it and reflecting about all the mistakes i've done in life in studies , in extra , in whatever ! just thinking who have i let him/her down how dissapointed i'm about myself who have i not company with who have i not share with . . it's just the childish old me again thinking about suicides ?! that's not me alright . it just appear out of a sudden when it shouldn't be appearing AT ALL !! thinking that i should have end here , so that i dun have to think anymore i needed a rest i need time why can't we have 48 hours a day ?! if only there is . life would be much easier but * back to the same old sentence * that's life i usually imagine , what if i'm at other schools now ? would my life be easier or tougher ? more stressful or less ? am i a prefect ? band member of that school? i'm exhausted i'm really tired. to debra : debra , dun be sad okay cheer up =) you're a cheerful girl you're usually the one who brings laughter to the gang and you are a good friend although to you , this sentence might not seem to be working but i still have to say this if not , there's no other time where i could say this again YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND. jia you ! i know you can ! really ! especially in science and maths i see improvement in you ! keep it up (= no matter what , i'm always by your side . and supporting you ! GO DEBRA! to xinyi : xinyi , sometimes get moody and once moody , like there is no xinyi cause no sound made by her you're a chatty-in-a-good-way girl and you're clever you're bright . good in english aim for jc, girl . you're the fastest in the gang you catch balls ! and catch jokes fast than anyone else you're definitely my best friend and no matter what happens , i will alawys be on your side and supporting you ! GO XINYI ! jiayou~ i end it here how about this ?! HOWSUN ROCK! DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA ! howsun finish jotting down his notes at 1:33 AM |