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CHAPTER 15 : HOWSUN'S LIFE NOTES : maystar designs
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DAY & DATE : Friday, March 09, 2007 okay lah BAND not bad . i think so moody during band i also dunno why either oh maybe is because i didn't play well i'm like slowing down in the drum part , vibraphone part . what the hell am i doing ? and then , i just keep slowing down/rushing the tempo . must watch mr er , but keep looking at my vibraphone what's wrong with me ? was not very happy with my performance . but mrs tan came in and told us the results then say dunno what , motivation stuff lah then i think to myself , I"M GOING TO BE THE NEXT TOP SCORER IN O LEVEL THIS YEAR :D i was so high when i think of that :D RESULT SLIP HORROR L1R5 = 24 !!! OH MY GOSH MADNESS ! lousy but teacher put high hope on me so i mustn't disappoint them and i've got potential :D i'm gonna work hard ! * try ?! * i know i can do it , i know i can , but why i can't ? i know i can , yet i cannot . but during O LEVELS , I KNOW I CAN , AND I CAN , AND I WILL BECOME THE TOP SCORER :D gee , was just imagining . but i hope it will become the truth MARCH HOLIDAYS = no holidays work and work and work :S PERSONAL THOUGHTS i think i'm not even fit to be a leader i'm not very good in studies , i dun earn respect from people , people are not afraid of me, after dunno how many times i reminded people not to take their own time , still , no improvement . to them , having a drum major like me , is just having a easier way of life everything also bluff through me i can't even play well . in addition , a leader should be able to motivate people how come i'm making life miserable for people ?! and just dun want to listen to what i say ? talk back , argue , say that "it's the fact " . yea yea . hmm . i should reflect on myself and become a better leader !!! i want to lead well . FRIENDS are friends there to make you cry ? i just want to motivate you , instead of motivating , i demoralised you . :S sorry though . anyway , what rights do i have man ? i'm now a 24 pointer i did so badly and i still want to motivate people , nuswoh = cannot make it . hahah ! SUMMARY WORK AND WORK AND WORK EXTRA WUZUN IS MY LIFE ! :D howsun how about this ?! HOWSUN ROCK! DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA ! howsun finish jotting down his notes at 10:24 PM |