h o w s u n ((:

DAY & DATE : Saturday, May 12, 2007

SATURDAY
CHIONGING SESSION , CONSTANT MUGGING :S
i came to realization today that i'm super dumb and annoying .
ahahah , no lah , just kidding.
MUGGING SESSION
jurong point-ed as usual .
chiong with first class top students .
and then , went macdonalds.
from afternoon chiong physics until night
after library close , i still chiong at macdonalds.
ahaha
then suddenly saw one whole line of indians (not being racist here ) walking into the macdonalds for like few minutes.
as in , the line doesn't stop , keep got indians coming in
then after that , decided to go home ,
no train . so took bus .
yea , that's all for chiong session today :D
BLACK-ED PART
i decided that
for all my inner thoughts of the day , i shall black-ed it
so that people can skip if they want to ,
and those who are annoyed or dun want to read can skip.
ultimately , this is the place where i tell my stories and the blog won't (NEVER) reject ,
so , yea , i shall narrate it out . read it , ignore it or skip it.
there's this feeling that i'm become a weirder person .
weirder may not be the word.
okay , explanation part.
sec 2 howsun , would be chionging his studies
regardless of any distraction ,
computer lah ,
tv lah ,
anything ,
he still chiong like anything .
chiong like nobody business.
as time goes by ,
distractions are getting stronger,
now ,
distract alittle bit , cannot concentrate.
the concentration is not the fullest loh.
so disappointed in myself.
and when i was chionging with the first class topstudents ,
the subject of being gentlemen surfaced.
groups says that up and calvan are gentlemen in our class.
well , i agree with that :D
after much gossiping,
i settled down alone and start thinking.
am i a gentleman ?
and thinking through my deeds,
i was not even 0.1 percent close to it .
giving excuses will be like : " because i'm a lady ?! "
and that sentence brings me to the topic of me changing.
BM said that i've changed .
i thought it was probably to the worse
and INDEED , it was " changed to the worse "
she said now i accept people calling my gay . and i won't be angry
last time , i would . now i won't.
probably i was used to it already bah .
but , of course , inside will be angry/sad lah .
especially when the friend you care alot said that .
gosh , turn your life upside down .
)):
i target so high , but ability so low .
target SA , but can't even study well .
act one clever .
targer SA , everytime talk SA , but then ,
can't even study well , still talk SA .
i'm such a disappointment in life .
i bring trouble , i create trouble ,
and worse , i attract attention .
ETC
when are you going to make me feel better ?
make me jump for joy ?
make me smile again ?
when are you going to CHANGE ME BACK TO THE HAPPY HOWSUN ?!
oh gosh , i beg you can ?
i beg you to please cheer me on.
i'm on the verge of giving up and you're still like that .
why do i have to do this , begging you to cheer me on ?
howsun

how about this ?!
HOWSUN ROCK!
DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA !
howsun finish jotting down his notes at 1:42 PM