h o w s u n ((:

DAY & DATE : Saturday, September 06, 2008

THINGS CAN JUST CHANGE IN ONE SNAP !
this devastating realisation left speechless.
it made me felt so lost ,
lost not because i don't know where am i ,
but i've no idea what's going through my mind.
disappointment or joy !?
friends are telling me ,
or rather , somehow or another i managed to find out that,
they're all leaving singapore.
not JJ , it's SINGAPORE.
okay , i don't know i should jump in joy for them
because they are leaving for good ,
or sad because .. i don't know the reason myself.
there is just this feeling of being lonely ,
for you know there's only a minority among the school that could make it for further studies ,
and you know , out of the 3 that went with you ,
all 3 are leaving you !?
and that being all three are the closest to me in my sec school.
you girls made me felt real lost.
and yes , you can put it in a sarcastic manner , saying that you still contribute to my feelings.
but YES , the truth is , YOU GIRLS DECIDES MY FEELING TOO .
and yeah , so much for realising these issues JUST A FEW WEEKS BEFORE PROMOS.
great time.
okay , my feeling is getting worthless .
in school , things are not getting any better.
for i do feel lonely in school.
yeah , you may say ,
your council ?!
yup , they're there.
but you know , there's this feeling which you can't describe.
then you thought you have your supposedly close friends ,
and what happens if you realised out of the 4 that's in your list ,
4 are attached ?!
2 of them are together.
and the other 2 are together.
so yes , that makes me the ODD number.
oh , thought there's this adult that's close to me as well !?
like you said, he's an adult.
he has his own commitments.
and you know , the time available for you won't be much.
so yeah , you're left with !?
haha , oh , yeah , councilors .
now honestly ,
through this study camp ,
which i had for the past few days ,
it made me realized the reality that's happening right in front of me.
inferiority ?!
superiority !?
ostracized ?!
and there's this period where you officially doesn't feel belong to anyone.
and there's nobody who is there for you.
and for once , i feel like having a break from this fast-paced society ,
to an island where i get to speak to the nature ,
let things go ,
hopefully , things would turn better.
studies have been bad.
i miss amirah and xinmin.
i miss gts most , seriously.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSSA .
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YIHAO !
:D
howsun

how about this ?!
HOWSUN ROCK!
DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA !
howsun finish jotting down his notes at 10:26 PM