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DAY & DATE : Monday, November 02, 2009

TODAY IS JUST AMBIVALENT .
okay , screw those moments that really upsets me
and i adore those that made me really happy :)
so , before i go on ,
let me just display my "rights" of having the right to say "what i want because this is my blog , so if you're unhappy then leave "
haha . anyway , it's not like as if i'm gonna harm anybody right .
and i don't think my words are gonna hurt anyone in particular.
so long as i don't pose harm or affect people, i won't be caught right ?!
anyway , no one should be affected mentally or psychologically ,
because whatever i am going to say is pure complaints of the day ,
and if it does really affect you in one way or another ,
then something must be wrong with you . haha .
well, in that circumstances , you can kindly ask me to remove what you think is affecting you :)
( pardon me , i think my bitch mode is on today, but i am gonna control :) )
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sigh , consultation today was horrifying .
partly because i am feeling more insecure after that instead .
for a moment , i thought the consultation has defeated its purpose.
i don't deny that i learned stuff :)
but it was killing me inside.
i had no clue what was happening ,
and it was like a mental agony for me.
kinda broke down inside me.
i can feel the tears making their way to the eye.
what the hell.
that instantaneous emotion was overwhelming , now that i come to think back about it , it is scary.
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then after being so upset with myself ,
i packed my teacher's pigeon hole :)
heh .
and then i left school.
then at the bus stop ,
i saw yihao and alyssa :D :D :D
today i just met people that i am really glad to see.
heh , then ate with them .
:)
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then went to library .
so went up to 4th storey,
and i think i was being such a public nuisance ,
but it doesn't really bother me ,
because i was with my lovely peers :D
heh ,
and then , suddenly ,
BOOM BOOM BOOM ,
someone came running and hit gadis.
guess who , maureen.
haha , then i study halfway ,
guess who i saw next ?!
WOAH WOAH WOAH !
ROBIN TAI !!! :D
really made my day :)
haha , it's like the first primary school friend i saw in real life after primary 6 , (facebook aside)
hahaha . then went imm to eat.
hahaha , played really retarded but fun game because of the people playing.
the finger thing , which i sucked at it - short fingers , difficult ok!
heart attack .
and then we go home.
haha , oh , now comes the argh part.
that char kway teow uncle had to make fun of my special order .
i don't see why he had to .
okay , maybe the first few seconds it was reasonable.
i mean , no vegetable, no tao gay , no ham seems really ridiculous,
but he and his "gang" had to laugh from the point i order till the point they serve me the food.
it's not that funny lah , i guess they just missed their childhood.
two guys and a lady laughing over no taugay , no vege and no ham ?!
seriously , my gosh .
and they keep saying like i'm transparent you know ,
and laugh right in my face !
i will forgive that uncle ,
but i will never forget !
haha , then i was burning inside already ,
the lady who was laughing together with him for a good whole ten minutes ,
had a tag which says " we are trying to serve you better "
i was like , can tell you guys are "really trying".
i took my food and didn't even said my thank-you sincerely , which i normally will .
but i had to say their kway teow is delicious .
heh .
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apparently , now that i type everything out ,
the number of happy events is actually more than the argh ones .
but the argh ones are really unbearable.
honestly uh .
and people , pass motion is shit okay .
passing out is faint.
heh .
okay , that's it.
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anyway , thank you neighbour ,
for the yesterday's night.
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Nov 02
10.30 PM
howsun.

how about this ?!
HOWSUN ROCK!
DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA !
howsun finish jotting down his notes at 6:03 AM