h o w s u n ((:

DAY & DATE : Friday, June 11, 2010

AND THEN ...

and then here i go again.

ever since 26 april, i slowly to realise the importance of my parents

until it reached a point that i cannot stop thinking about them and regretted not spending my time well with them for the past 17 years.

for everything you two had done for me, thank you mum and dad. i love you two.

besides that, i managed to discover more about myself and things i didn't really paid attention to.

simple things like taking the ferry triggers my memories back in hong kong, where me and my friends took similar ferry to macau.

okay, my thoughts are scrambled, so you might have difficulty reading this since there's no flow.

i'm watching grey's anatomy while typing this. so i'm distracted.

sometimes the most hated method may be the most efficient way, but does it really necessarily mean it is the best way ?

seriously, would it be the best when welfare is jeopardize ?

humanity vs result. care, people, care.

i have an edge and i temporary lost it.

bernahkah salahku, lepaskan kamu ?!

tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita

kalau kisah kita sementara

rasa hati dan langkahmu

membuat aku keliru

seriously, it reflects the thought i have everytime i think about you, everything that has link to you, whenever i see it, the whole paragraph will come out in my mind. no joke.

karma,

it's not unfair you know,

it just evens out scores.

and i believe what goes around comes around.

there's this thought that has been keeping my mind occupied.

and i

do you have any regrets so far in your life ?

okay, maybe not regret, let me rephrase.

what are things you would have done if you could turn back time ?

one, i would take up h3 for my interest.

two, i shouldn't have get myself involved in things which would hurt me emotionally

three, i shouldn't have let go someone because i was silly.

i have a secret and i cannot share with anyone,

till the time is appropriate.

okay, that last sentence is self-defeating.

okay, i haven't watch finish grey's anatomy, but i am currently at season 2.

and i see how i could suitably fit into one character's shoe at this moment.

excuse the medical skills, i am referring to the relationship part.

intially, i thought i am like meredith.

but when i gave it a deeper thought, i think i am in derek's shoes more.

except the part where i don't have addison with me.

and i lost the battle.

hold on, it was not even a battle. i wasn't even intend to fight for it.

and now that i've "lost" it, i wish i could be in the battle again.

is the bond still there ?

what was i thinking and what am i thinking now ?

you know, sometimes when you listen to a song,

someone would come to your mind instantly.

like maybe you discussed the song with that someone before,

or you listened to it together, or you simply just thought of someone who suits best to the song.

for me, i still like 'Last Farewell' most.

i feel like as if i reached adulthood when i still haven't get a taste of it.

sometimes i think i am pure and being a good boy,

but deep down, i know i'm just not that innocent.

so, why do we try so hard when people just got the same result doing nothing ?!

well, i'll say we do it for ourselves and i believe in karma.

sometimes you just need to do things a little faster than other people.

by the way, all the sections have a certain context attached to it.

take your time, and if it's too late, it's your lost.

and hypothetically, what would you do if i asked you that question ?

at this circumstances. give it a thought :)

heard the saying : "a picture speaks a thousand words" ?

yes ?! one picture could bring out hell lots of meaning.

but what happens when you misread the picture ?

that's as if reading a thousand word wrongly,

which definitely ends up with a misunderstanding and misinterpretation.

i just misinterpreted one week ago.

trust me, it bothers you when you see a picture you wished you shouldn't have seen.

i look up to the sky whenever i can,

search for silver lining,

for faith and hope,

praying that things would be smooth and manageable.

temperance is a virtue and i think i practise this well internally.

hmm, why am i getting all emotional uh ?!

howsun

11 June

2:05 AM

how about this ?!
HOWSUN ROCK!
DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA !
howsun finish jotting down his notes at 9:39 AM