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CHAPTER 15 : HOWSUN'S LIFE NOTES : maystar designs
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DAY & DATE : Saturday, June 19, 2010 was a great show. very touching at the end, but the fatigue just sat in .. great company and changing appetite was nice as well. Frankenstein mudpie and durian cake .. woooh ~ i just can't wait for the two weeks to pass. it's gonna be over soon. it came quick but also passed quick. i'm just glad it happened the way it did. because it was through those times that i realised the importance things that are often so easily ignored yet important. - i know i had reached that stage before, and so i am going to reach that stage again, if not better. - let's go back to grey's anatomy. today i felt like Finn. 'You're a great guy, you're a wonderful guy. And you may even be the better guy. But…' exactly. - sometimes, people worry because they are afraid of the consequences. and then, the consequences either leads to joy or disappointment. i realised i choose to occupy myself with worries. thoughts that doesn't seem to matter. you know you're in the safety net but when you choose to put a new target which may be beyond the limits, or so you think, you start to question your sense of achievement. which results to : Worry. and this sucks. - no matter how bad the day is , it's gonna come to an end. it has been a blast. - don't you have those moments, where you feel like there's no point telling people about your problem because they are not gonna solve it for you anyway ? sometimes, don't you just wish that someone, somewhere, somehow will have the solution to help you in your desperate times ?! i have been feeling that lately. - and then i get the feeling of wanting someone who i want to be there for me, to be there for me. and at times you just don't care whoever is there for you , cause you're only concern with whether or not, that someone is by your side. i need someone to hug me. haha. just joking. - you set a things-to-do to be completed by today, but you fail to do it. and you're gonna be guilty. what are you gonna do when it's too late ? find ways to make up for it ?! still do it the next day ?! i don't know. - and i have no idea what's going through my mind. maybe those zzz are messing up my brain. but whatever it is, i should get to sleep soon. - 1.53 AM 20 June howsun how about this ?! HOWSUN ROCK! DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA ! howsun finish jotting down his notes at 9:40 AM |