DAY & DATE : Tuesday, April 26, 2011
HMM ..
sometimes, do you do things to let other people see ?
you behave in certain way,
so that you to form an impression you wanted to form on the other person.
then, does that make you an attention seeking person ?
in the process, do you find that you actually use people to get your intention you're trying to achieve ?
indeed, that could be a selfish move.
but it's tough to try to avoid that, isn't it ?
hence, i understand.
-
i miss chengdu times with valeons.
i miss yunnan.
i miss hongkong.
i miss ho chih min and taiwan.
i need to get out of singapore.
even if i have to go ALONE , i don't mind.
in one year time, i'll run out of here for a holiday.
a good one.
-
listening to para para makes me want to go japan even more.
whether or not they been through disaster,
japan is always one of the country i love :)
-
i can't help it.
PMS is it ?
i don't know how come i just feel sad.
stupid shit,
i think about it ah, when i'm not in the 'living in my world' mood,
i'm like sad over stupid stuff leh.
friends going overseas and not like as if they not coming back.
they are leh, some monday, some friday, BUT WHY THE HECK I FEEL THIS WAY ?
-
absence,
makes the heart grow fonder.
some, you just want them to go away as far as possible.
some, you just want to see them at every opportunity.
when you fall into second category, be very careful,
because it's dependence.
and it's not good for health.
everything you do, every second, this person doesn't seem to disappear from the head.
-
i wonder when a person is nice,
is there a reason behind it ?
and when it's geniuene,
won't you have the initial doubt ?
won't that make you a skeptical person ?
it's just complicated.
i think i should never try to study human behavior next time,
i might just die, it's so complicated.
i couldn't even understand myself already. aiyoo.
-
why do people blog eh ?
say your feeling ?
an avenue to express your thoughts ?
publicize your life ?
really ?
could it be a channel to let others know what you are feeling ?
without being caught in the awkward situation where you don't really want to say it face to face.
yeah, then doesn't that makes you want to publicize your blog ?
no ?
haha.
-
i need to run.
don't you think you always have this mean to channel your energy, anger and excitement when you have to ?
i still don't know what's mine leh.
dance ? run ? inner tolerance ?
i think dance bah, maybe. haha.
i feel the wake-up call, reality-check and the truth,
when i see people fail, when i see people work harder,
never fail to give me a scare.
-
i think once you pass a certain phase of the same feeling,
you go numb,
and thats when you start to think back about the feelings you have.
and then, you feel like it's so dumb.
but when the feeling is 'fresh',
that's it.
it's either damn agonizing or damn shiok!
but it's always the former.
sigh.
haha, i'm so going towards the bullshit side.
i wonder how the angmohs are now.
and here i am, always at the other side of the world,
thinking of how the people on the other side are.
haha.
tsk tsk tsk.
-
songs,
aren't they perfect ?
sometimes, the lyrics just bring out what you're feeling.
besides that, it gives people a chance to dance, sing and perform.
also, it provides entertainment and for some, it's their life.
lyrics, now suitable for how am i feeling :
you belong with me
bad romance
haha, i thinking too much le lah.
and there are some songs which are just nice,
gives you a feeling you can't describe. happy + sad.
how to save a life
viva la vida
aiya, that's why i listen to para para songs now.
no emotions, just purely for dance.
haha, then won't think so much mah.
-
and and, i always want to know what people are thinking and feeling.
i sometimes get angry when i couldn't understand,
and i get angry at myself instead.
i get angry at myself when the other person doesn't show what they feel.
soo, to make things easier, can you tell me what are you thinking and feeling now ?
PLEASE ?
sigh.
ironically, i think i myself don't wanna let people know.
-
haha, then that brings me to another point.
IF,
if you dont mind and to let people know,
three types of people :
best friends,
person whom you want their attention.
geniuene cases of good friendship.
-
a person who doesn't talk about their family problems ,
doesn't mean they don't have.
it's just not serious.
a person who doesn't talk about their financial problems,
doesn't mean they don't have.
it's just not serious.
a person who doesn't talk about their life problems,
doesn't mean they don't have.
it's just not serious.
a person who doesn't talk about their health issues,
doesn't mean they don't have.
it's just that they might be too scared to find out what happen to them.
-
yesterday was my one year anniversary with the green uniform :)
haha, and it's so fast it has been one year already
my triangle plate is down :D
and it's already going to May.
i won't be shocked the next moment we will be in some university and some, working adults.
-
howsun
27 Apr 2011
1232 PM
how about this ?!
HOWSUN ROCK!
DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA !
howsun finish jotting down his notes at 7:13 PM
|
