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DAY & DATE : Thursday, April 21, 2011

OLD AND DUSTY!
trying to revive this.
apparently, i happened to SUDDENLY remember my almost non-existence blog yesterday.
and i came back, started reading my latest post.
haha, surprisingly, i was a little shock to read back what i typed back then.
it's like a little .. you know, okay, i can't think of the word.
and and and, haha, i realised i often say how i was tired and always pardon myself for the inconsistent flow.
and today, it would not be any different,
because i just got initiated, for whatever reason, you don't have to know.
but yes, i drank 3 mugs of beer, (gosh, don't beer! just stick to alcohol)
and i was like in my own world, swaying left and right, on the verge of 'merlion'-ing.
well, today was a special night. haha.
recently, have been trying to get myself into the feeling of the working world.
i can imagine how working life would be, this demanding and tiring. horrible.
okay, really, the flow is just not there. pardon me okay. currently still in the 'seh' mood.
many things happened.
i like thinking alone, to myself.
sometimes i wonder, do you really need to speak up your opinion ?
i don't really know the answer to myself.
i was thinking to this question but i came to no conclusion.
anyway, i always think inside my head.
then i would start challenging myself, like as if another person was talking to me.
just to make sure i don't sound stupid if i have to speak my opinion out.
worse part is, when you realised you debated with yourself inside your head,
and end up realising you lost to yourself in your own hyped up debate inside your head.
that's just sad. :(
and sometimes, when someone or a group talks or reviews about a certain performance,
and when they point out the results that you didn't contribute by failing,
don't your heart just goes sour and umph ?! :(
haha, anyway.
i want to be good in something.
i want to be achiever.
i always say that but i do nothing about it.
i want to be, so that when i'm not, i can see the difference.
i know how two sides feel.
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i think learning needs maturity.
it's something that you cannot teach.
sometimes you just need the maturity to gain that level of understanding,
to get the underlying purpose of certain issues and things.
then how do you gauge one's learning ?
through results ? display of character ?
tangible or intangible ?
if you are looking for the intangible indicator of one's success,
you must then, accept the fact that you've got nothing to PROVE your success.
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assumption is not always good.
you assume because you have an impression that certain people have the ability to carry out certain things accordingly.
but what if your impression wasn't right ? what if it's tainted ?
then your judgement becomes blur.
do you get more paranoid and places less trust on people because you don't trust your judgement anymore?
does that make you less credible in giving opinion ?
why limit the praises you give ? be generous with it.
it helps people to improve :)
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some failure have a high price to pay.
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i'm currently hooked to new types of songs.
i like dance.
gin's dance is FWAH AWESOME! :)
and hmm, kumar's is good! as usual! :D
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howsun
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how about this ?!
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