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CHAPTER 15 : HOWSUN'S LIFE NOTES : maystar designs
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DAY & DATE : Thursday, May 05, 2011 yeah, my interest. i want to dance well. i think i used to. at least, i can do well in para para. now, i feel rusty and old. like a robot. still trying to perform. i don't know what's wrong with me. should practice more. - was reading some blog just now. it got me quite sad, how people we know, those around us, some that are pretty close to us, just have it the harder way. and us, who are better to do, whine at the smallest stuff like it's the end of the world, but people go through more. so don't complain you little prince and princess. haha. - i was watching a show the other day. my dad was acting like he was asleep on the sofa, apparently he failed. caught him watching the show also. my mum was sitting at the massage chair, watching the show. and me, eating my noodle, acting like i don't give a damn about the show. ( and of course, i acted pretty well, seemed like i was just focusing on my food, but was secretly watching the show ) then this show was about this guy who rebelled and then did some teen crime, disappointed the mother, asked the mother to get him out of boys home, then got caught for crime the next day. i saw how disappointed the mother was, i couldn't help it. i teared while eating, and as an attempt to cover up, i quickly ran to the kitchen after i finish my food. saw my mum holding tissue paper. woah, those moments. i can't watch shows that involve family, those sad moments. i just need those shows to make me go wild and start thinking all the :( :( stuff. and then just now, read my friend's blog. talked about his family. my heart sank . like a titaniccc ~ okay, drama abit, but it felt that way. sigh. treasure everyone you know, before it's too late for you to do so. for that, i shall remind myself to treat everyone well with respect and concern, regardless the actions i got back in return. okay, i try lah, no gurantee. but those purposely piss me off one, that one is just asking for it. i'm making effort to train my inner temperance and tolerance and .. aiya, don't know what word. haha - Shake ya by janet jackson is damn addictive. it's been on replay on my iphone for errr, past 1 hour ?! tsk. should go rest already. good night people. - i miss you, k. take care. - May 06 2.12 AM howsun how about this ?! HOWSUN ROCK! DON'T YOU AGREE ?! YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY YEA ! howsun finish jotting down his notes at 10:55 AM |